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23 April 2006 @ 04:54 am
 

17th, December, 1975

Doris,

I managed to slip this into your schoolbag before you left, so I don't know if... you're reading reading this on the date I wrote it or if you're actually reading this at all. If you're not, I completely understand. I overreacted. You're right, I start trouble. I'm a horrid person with no hope of changing and I shouldn't have gotten upset with you for no reason, just because you did the right thing with apologising. I'm sorry I made you cry. I... ever since the beginning of the year when Lupin and I had an arguement I've not gotten along well with either Black or him and I doubt that's every going to change.

But I shouldn't have dragged our friendship into it, just because you apologised to him. I'm sorry, Dory. Forgive me? I miss my best friend.

Yours,

Cas.
 
 
 
Doris Purkiss: upsettainted_perfect on April 22nd, 2006 07:56 pm (UTC)
Owl To Dorcas
Dorcas,

At the moment I'm writing this, I'm wondering how in the world you got that letter in my bag. I'm jealous of your stealth.

It's been a few days since break began and it's given me time to think about what happened between us. I still really haven't the slightest why we fought or why we sort of.. fell apart. You've been my best friend since before either of us knew how to walk, and I was hurt by your comments.

Thinking back at it now, I wasn't the best of a friend either. I.. don't really know how those comments made you feel, but I felt horrible saying it to you. It slipped out, and I really didn't mean it. You are not a horrible person, Dorcas.

I care for you so much, and when you get into trouble, I worry. I worry so much. I hate the fact that you're just so.. on edge around Sirius and Remus for one certain people. If you were to give them the chance, I'm sure that you could all get along.

But, Dorcas, I think that you were right about me being a doormat. I just can't help it. It's the way I am. I let people step all over me, I know it, but I don't mind it.

Really, I should be begging you for forgiveness. I.. lost it. I've been under so much stress that it just came out. I didn't mean a word of it, Cas, I swear I didn't.

I miss you so much, Cas. I hope we can somehow get back to the way we were before.

All my love,
Doris
Dorcas Meadows: Judgement.whinyrockstar on April 22nd, 2006 08:07 pm (UTC)
Owl to Doris
Doris,

Oh Merlin. I'm so glad you wrote back. I thought you were going to hate me forever for how I reacted. I'm sorry, love. I'm just... so sorry. I was hurt too, that's why I reacted that way. Let me tell you something you probably already know - I don't care what people think. I really don't and I guess that plays against me more often than not. I can handle anything anyone I don't care about says about me. I get over it. They don't know me.

But hearing those things from somebody I love it... just stung. Like rubbing salt into a cut. They hurt, but I knew they were true. I overreacted. I was foolish. And I realise this now. It seems as though before my reality check just kept bouncing but... god, this is hard to explain.

You're not a doormat, love. They were just... stupid words written in a moment of anger. I'm sorry. I really am. I was stupid.

Love,
Dorcas.
Doris Purkiss: worriedtainted_perfect on April 22nd, 2006 08:18 pm (UTC)
Owl to Dorcas
Dorcas,

I know that you're oblivant to others comments besides your friends. I'm just so sorry about what I said. The minute I said wrote that to you, I felt guilt just pour over me. I hope that you know that I didn't mean to call you a horrible person. At all. Moments of anger bring out the worst in people, don't they?

I think that I can say in confidence that we both acted stupid then. But I want it to all be normal between us when I get back from break. Forgive and forget, love?

Love,
Doris
Dorcas Meadows: Alone.whinyrockstar on April 22nd, 2006 08:23 pm (UTC)
Owl to Doris
Doris,

It's all water under the bridge now, darling. :) I'm sorry. You're sorry. We acted stupid, but... you know, friends forever and all that, right?

Forget what? ;)

Love,
Dorcas.
Doris Purkiss: lovetainted_perfect on April 22nd, 2006 08:27 pm (UTC)
Owl to Dorcas
Dorcas,

Yes, friends forever. :) I'm so glad that this is all over with. Let's just not bring it up again. Forget about it completely.

Love,
Doris
Dorcas Meadows: Cheeeeeeeeeeeerful!whinyrockstar on April 22nd, 2006 08:29 pm (UTC)
Owl to Doris
Doris,

Agreed. :) So how's your break so far? Mine has been utter Hell. I'm virtually the only person in Ravenclaw who stayed for the holidays. It's just been... mostly Slytherins.

Love,
Dorcas.
Doris Purkiss: happytainted_perfect on April 22nd, 2006 08:58 pm (UTC)
Owl to Dorcas
Dorcas,

I wish you were here instead of being alone during the hols in the castle.

It's been... bareable. Sarah and Isabel arrived yesterday, along with my Uncle Jonathan and a few of the younger cousins. I'm actually looking after a few of them now. Hyperactive little buggers that they are.

Thomas is coming home from Auror training tomorrow. So it'll be one big happy family for Christmas. Hopefully

I do hope that you're keeping yourself busy at the castle even if there aren't too many people there. :P

Love,
Doris
Dorcas Meadows: Cheeeeeeeeeeeerful!whinyrockstar on April 22nd, 2006 09:07 pm (UTC)
Re: Owl to Dorcas
Doris,

It was either stay here or go home. Mum's on warpath, so I decided to stay here.

Oh gack, you're looking after them? You poor creature. I will send you lots and lots of owls to keep you sane or drive you crazy quicker. Whichever. :P

... Hold on a sec, I've just got to move from the Library. Apparently Pince doesn't like owls near her precious books.

...

There. Have relocated to the 'Claw Commons. Oh, I am I am. No need to worry about that, darling. I might even pass my NEWTs next year with the amount of studying I've crammed in these past few days I needed the distraction. Tell me why I'm a Ravenclaw again?

Love,
Dorcas.
Doris Purkiss: happytainted_perfect on April 22nd, 2006 09:23 pm (UTC)
Owl to Dorcas
Dorcas,

Oh thank you for that. The letters are distracting me from them. :D At the moment, they're bouncing up and down, waiting for my brother to come and screaming "Tommy! Tommy!" to me.(Mind you, he's not coming until tonight) They really idolize my brother.

Why are you a Ravenclaw? Because you're really intelligent. You just don't apply yourself too often. That and I think no other House would be able to stand you. :P

Love,
Doris
Dorcas Meadows: Neeeener! Neener!whinyrockstar on April 22nd, 2006 09:36 pm (UTC)
Re: Owl to Dorcas
Doris,

I wish I had a sister or something. Mum and Dad never really had a time for another after I was born, I guess. :P And I suppose I'm handful enough to make up for an entire family.

I don't see why I should bother with school work when my goal is to be the next Playwizard editor. :P

Love,
Dorcas.
Doris Purkiss: lovetainted_perfect on April 22nd, 2006 09:55 pm (UTC)
Owl to Dorcas
Dorcas,

Brothers and sisters aren't all their cracked up to be. Believe me.

And I am going to ignore that last part. Just going to ignore it.

Love,
Doris
Dorcas Meadowswhinyrockstar on April 22nd, 2006 09:59 pm (UTC)
Owl to Doris
Doris,

Playwizard. I'm going to do a Men of Hogwarts centrefold. ;P

Love,
Dorcas.
Doris Purkisstainted_perfect on April 22nd, 2006 10:05 pm (UTC)
Re: Owl to Docas
Dorcas,

I twitch at the thought. Twitch I say.

Love,
Dorcas
Dorcas Meadowswhinyrockstar on April 22nd, 2006 10:12 pm (UTC)
Owl to Doris
Doris,

Oh come on. Like you wouldn't read it. Have you seen the people in this school? Hell, even Blackie Boy could sell an issue or two.

Love,
Doris.
Doris Purkisstainted_perfect on April 22nd, 2006 10:18 pm (UTC)
Owl to Dorcas
Dorcas,

Well.. perhaps I would Blah, perhaps they're are some... rather attractive people in the school, but there's no need to show them in Playwizard! :P

Love,
Doris
Dorcas Meadowswhinyrockstar on April 22nd, 2006 10:22 pm (UTC)
Owl to Doris
Doris,

I think we need to... make up a joint name. See my little mistake back there, love? We need to combine our names... so we don't mess it up so often. But people look better when they're nakey. Like... Dorecas.

Love,
Dorcas.
Doris Purkiss: happytainted_perfect on April 23rd, 2006 02:16 am (UTC)
Re: Owl to Dorcas
Dorcas,

Why not announce our wedding while you're at it? ;P I think Dorecas is a wonderful new name for our little nickname though.

Love,
Doris
Dorcas Meadows: Neeeener! Neener!whinyrockstar on April 23rd, 2006 02:44 am (UTC)
Owl to Doris
Doris,

Sorry to break it to you love, but I'm cheating on you with Tristan Cartier. You know, the Quidditch player whom I'm going to have babies with? ;P I'm glad you think so.

Love,
Dorcas.
Doris Purkiss: suprisedtainted_perfect on April 23rd, 2006 04:02 am (UTC)
Owl to Dorcas
Dorcas,

Oh the betrayal! I shudder to think of who else you've been cheating on me with. ;) But at least it's with a person who's pretty. And I allow you to have illegitimate children with him.

Love,
Doris